In a week or so, you will have been gone a year. It's going to be hard on several people, especially your daughters. I know they are missing you because I hear it from their own words weekly. It's so sad that you had to leave them. Now, your sister has followed you and that only leaves your brother David. I hope somehow, you have been at peace and please know how much the girls miss you.
Nita
Showing posts with label Ex's. Show all posts
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Monday, July 18, 2011
Sunday, August 10, 2008
A Poem To Bobby Joe
What Would I Do ?
If there were a time to come........
When you weren't there with me,
I'd want the time to start anew...
A life in eternity.....me and you.
Without you close to me,
The days would be so lonely.....
I'd have no purpose once again.
No reason to enjoy living,
Without you by my side,
My heart would run again to hide.
I'd not be full of love,
To give to this special man, with me.
For you would take my heart with you.
Lifeless, then I would be,
Stripped of all thats........ life to me.
Once again to wander, helplessly........
Looking for a special love like thee.......
To fill the space you'd leave in me.
Without you what would I be?
NOTHING......and very lonely....you'd see
So, Bobby let me be,
a special love to you....each day
As from the start, always brand new.
Never to ever be, lonely without......Me.
I Love you...........
Always,
Nita Kaye Stephens
When you weren't there with me,
I'd want the time to start anew...
A life in eternity.....me and you.
Without you close to me,
The days would be so lonely.....
I'd have no purpose once again.
No reason to enjoy living,
Without you by my side,
My heart would run again to hide.
I'd not be full of love,
To give to this special man, with me.
For you would take my heart with you.
Lifeless, then I would be,
Stripped of all thats........ life to me.
Once again to wander, helplessly........
Looking for a special love like thee.......
To fill the space you'd leave in me.
Without you what would I be?
NOTHING......and very lonely....you'd see
So, Bobby let me be,
a special love to you....each day
As from the start, always brand new.
Never to ever be, lonely without......Me.
I Love you...........
Always,
Nita Kaye Stephens
Thursday, July 10, 2008
Hey RL & Jan
How mean of you to make these brats of your's so bad and then go off and leave them here on us, to deal with. Hey you are out of the mess you two created and free of the crap these vultures dish out. You should be the one's to have to put up with your demons. If it weren't for you these brats wouldn't be turned loose on society. You have horrible kids and they don't care who they abuse....how much they take....or what they can get away with....just like you two did, when you were alive. They are a product of your and your lives, and that's not giving you one compliment to your credit. You make me hate ever knowing you two and wanting to be in your lives. How could I have been so stupid? I just wish I had never met you two, then I wouldn't have to deal with your bratty kids.........they need to leave me alone.......I don't want to be their step-mom.
Sincerely
Nita Kaye
Sincerely
Nita Kaye
Wednesday, June 25, 2008
Dearest John Q A
Hello, My sweet wonderful friend,
I know you are in a better place, yet I wish you were still here. The cancer, was hard on you and I wouldn't want you to be sick, so I guess wishing you were here, would be selfish on my part. You were like a brother and a wonderful friend, to me and I'll never forget you. I know you wanted to be so much more, and for a time you were, but I wasn't able to give the love you would have needed from me, so I decided to not hold on to you so you could find someone who could give you your just dues in a relationship. Through the years we knew each other, we still remained close, and I was always welcome, when I would show up out of the blue to visit. A "big teddy bear" sort, you always gave of yourself and when you'd go down to our hang out and I wasn't there, you'd leave your calling card with one of the waitress's you could trust to give it to me. Your "Silver Dollar", let me know you had been there and was saying "hi".
I truly miss you and wish I could have given you more support during your time of sickness. Unfortunately, I had problems of my own and couldn't be there for you.
John, I hope to see you again, someday and I believe you were a really great man.
Love to you,
Nita
I know you are in a better place, yet I wish you were still here. The cancer, was hard on you and I wouldn't want you to be sick, so I guess wishing you were here, would be selfish on my part. You were like a brother and a wonderful friend, to me and I'll never forget you. I know you wanted to be so much more, and for a time you were, but I wasn't able to give the love you would have needed from me, so I decided to not hold on to you so you could find someone who could give you your just dues in a relationship. Through the years we knew each other, we still remained close, and I was always welcome, when I would show up out of the blue to visit. A "big teddy bear" sort, you always gave of yourself and when you'd go down to our hang out and I wasn't there, you'd leave your calling card with one of the waitress's you could trust to give it to me. Your "Silver Dollar", let me know you had been there and was saying "hi".
I truly miss you and wish I could have given you more support during your time of sickness. Unfortunately, I had problems of my own and couldn't be there for you.
John, I hope to see you again, someday and I believe you were a really great man.
Love to you,
Nita
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
Hello RL
Hello RL,
I'm not really into writing you but, I need to get this out of my system. I doubt the imprint you made on my life, will ever go away. I really wish it would, since most of it was bad. There's so much water under the bridge, and the bitterness, hate and rejection, I had while with you, overwhelmed our life. You used me as a means to an end, and left me no choice in the matter, if I stayed with you.
They say the person, that's going through the abuse, is just as sick as the one giving it. For many years, I was that sick person. You never, saw your wrong, until it jumped up and slapped you in the face. I was became, so bitter from the assaults, that I was eaten up with hate. You never let me have a minutes peace, and made sure you told me how no good I was and did it on a daily basis.
I wanted to love you, but you didn't want me to, either that or you didn't know how to love, except your kids.
Here in lay the problem.......Your Kids.........they never did anything wrong, no matter how many time you bailed them out of jail and gave them money for their habits. You chose to take their sides against me, and provoked assaults against me by them as well.
The only stable thing in your life, finally gave up and left. It wasn't long before your wonderful kids and street friends, had you so sick, that you never recovered. Two months after my leaving, you died. I will never be able to forget your body lying in that hospital room and how I just couldn't feel anything except hate, for all the things you allowed to happen to us, and now even you.
A big hole came into my life when you died, but I was able to finally accept it, and go on. Your kids, played the part to the hilt and tried to be martyrs, because you had gone off and left them, without anyone to help them. Yeah, right! They played on everyone they could, I stayed as far away from them as possible, to keep from being sucked in.
I'm glad I was able to do my part however feeble, it was during the funeral, and was glad to leave the horrible atmosphere, your family had created. I said my farewell to you and visited your grave, as often as possible for the 1st two years, the I slowly pulled away, to ease off the pain, it caused each time, I saw your grave and headstone.
One thing for sure, you don't have to put up with their crap anymore and they have to fend for themselves. Which I laugh at........sorry, that's just how they made me feel.
I'm sorry you died, but I glad your out of the mess.
Nita Kaye
I'm not really into writing you but, I need to get this out of my system. I doubt the imprint you made on my life, will ever go away. I really wish it would, since most of it was bad. There's so much water under the bridge, and the bitterness, hate and rejection, I had while with you, overwhelmed our life. You used me as a means to an end, and left me no choice in the matter, if I stayed with you.
They say the person, that's going through the abuse, is just as sick as the one giving it. For many years, I was that sick person. You never, saw your wrong, until it jumped up and slapped you in the face. I was became, so bitter from the assaults, that I was eaten up with hate. You never let me have a minutes peace, and made sure you told me how no good I was and did it on a daily basis.
I wanted to love you, but you didn't want me to, either that or you didn't know how to love, except your kids.
Here in lay the problem.......Your Kids.........they never did anything wrong, no matter how many time you bailed them out of jail and gave them money for their habits. You chose to take their sides against me, and provoked assaults against me by them as well.
The only stable thing in your life, finally gave up and left. It wasn't long before your wonderful kids and street friends, had you so sick, that you never recovered. Two months after my leaving, you died. I will never be able to forget your body lying in that hospital room and how I just couldn't feel anything except hate, for all the things you allowed to happen to us, and now even you.
A big hole came into my life when you died, but I was able to finally accept it, and go on. Your kids, played the part to the hilt and tried to be martyrs, because you had gone off and left them, without anyone to help them. Yeah, right! They played on everyone they could, I stayed as far away from them as possible, to keep from being sucked in.
I'm glad I was able to do my part however feeble, it was during the funeral, and was glad to leave the horrible atmosphere, your family had created. I said my farewell to you and visited your grave, as often as possible for the 1st two years, the I slowly pulled away, to ease off the pain, it caused each time, I saw your grave and headstone.
One thing for sure, you don't have to put up with their crap anymore and they have to fend for themselves. Which I laugh at........sorry, that's just how they made me feel.
I'm sorry you died, but I glad your out of the mess.
Nita Kaye
Monday, June 23, 2008
Hello Lynn
Hello Lynn,
What a horrible way to find out you were gone. I went online to a website that finds, people and looked up your address and such. I found "Deceased" on the page, that listed date of birth and date of death. Needless to say, I felt a big loss, and a huge lump come in my throat. I thought, I'd maybe get to see you again, and have fun talking to you like we used to, and cut up with each other. I thought I'd get to see that handsome, tall man with the light brown hair, walk up with a smile on his face and give me that "big bear hug", he always gave. A thrill would always run down my spine when you'd take me in your arms and hold me. I never wanted to loose that feeling, but when you beat me so many times and left me with black eyes and bruises on my face and lumps on my head, then turn of our children and beat them too, I just had to give the "love of my life", up. I wish you had cared enough to be a father to your children, instead of letting them suffer, knowing their dad, didn't care whether, they were alive or dead. You lost a lot, not know your children.
Misty
Barney & Jessica
They look just like you......imagine that....
I would have done anything for you, and put myself in jeopardy, just to make things right for you and me. I loved you too much and you took advantage of it. I wish it could have been different with us and you could have been the man, I needed. Instead you never grew up and were selfish, with your ways of doing things. What an ego you had, you knew you could sweep women off their feet, with your "silver tongue" ways. You had a way of looking into a woman's eyes with and "I want you look", that would just melt them. I even saw an "I love you" look, that would erase any wrong you had done to me. You were something else, and yet I can never, forget the time we had together, and how wonderful it was to be your woman, when you weren't being mean to me and the kids. I hope you found a better place, and are doing great where you are.
Love,
Nita Kaye
P.S. Misty came into town this week. She's just a devious as you were, Barney's following right in her shoes........aren't you proud of yourself?
What a horrible way to find out you were gone. I went online to a website that finds, people and looked up your address and such. I found "Deceased" on the page, that listed date of birth and date of death. Needless to say, I felt a big loss, and a huge lump come in my throat. I thought, I'd maybe get to see you again, and have fun talking to you like we used to, and cut up with each other. I thought I'd get to see that handsome, tall man with the light brown hair, walk up with a smile on his face and give me that "big bear hug", he always gave. A thrill would always run down my spine when you'd take me in your arms and hold me. I never wanted to loose that feeling, but when you beat me so many times and left me with black eyes and bruises on my face and lumps on my head, then turn of our children and beat them too, I just had to give the "love of my life", up. I wish you had cared enough to be a father to your children, instead of letting them suffer, knowing their dad, didn't care whether, they were alive or dead. You lost a lot, not know your children.
Misty
Barney & Jessica
They look just like you......imagine that....
I would have done anything for you, and put myself in jeopardy, just to make things right for you and me. I loved you too much and you took advantage of it. I wish it could have been different with us and you could have been the man, I needed. Instead you never grew up and were selfish, with your ways of doing things. What an ego you had, you knew you could sweep women off their feet, with your "silver tongue" ways. You had a way of looking into a woman's eyes with and "I want you look", that would just melt them. I even saw an "I love you" look, that would erase any wrong you had done to me. You were something else, and yet I can never, forget the time we had together, and how wonderful it was to be your woman, when you weren't being mean to me and the kids. I hope you found a better place, and are doing great where you are.
Love,
Nita Kaye
P.S. Misty came into town this week. She's just a devious as you were, Barney's following right in her shoes........aren't you proud of yourself?
Friday, June 13, 2008
Hello Up There
Hello up there to all my loved one's who've gone on.......
This is to the one's who knew my son, Barney and loved him, because he was part of the family. I want to show you the prettiest little thing that is in our family, and I want you to know, Jessica is so smart. She's Daddy's pride n joy, and will probably be the only child he ever has, since the woman, he's with now, can't have children. Anyway, I just wanted you to see how beautiful she is and know that so far, she's the last of my grandchildren. I saw her today for the 1st time in 2 years, cause her mom and day can't get along. Same old story you saw me go through. I just wanted to share her with you. I love you,
Kaye
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